When the wind blows and the leaves fall…~~

wah…it has been quite a while i did not update my blog here d lo..hehe…to my frens, i am veli veli fine in kl, fine in everything, in work, my life…everything is good, thou my love life is still blank, but who cares…hehe..enjoy life with my buddies, my single life, my 9-6 working life…yo ho…

but this does not mean that i wanna settle down just working for ppl…hehe…i wanna work hard for freedom~~~ (scream without action = failure) haha…

hmm..just finished my lunch, n i am alone in  the office,so just curi ayam a while for blogging, keke…i hope my everydays will happy like now…althou i am still struggling in my own career…but i will work hard to make my dream come true…haha…

2007 is coming, n a big big big day is on its way oso,…haha…year 2006 for me is not a very good year…i had experience a very sad incident, but this incident had made me grown up, so if think positively i need to be grateful that i met such a person who gave me this kind of experience, else my thinking will still like a little kid..wuahaha…

gonna clean up table n start work lu…

for my parents: thou they wont see this, but i hope they jaga their health lo…hehe…hope they will healthy always…hehe

for my sis: all the best in ur work and everything will be solved at the end, so dun pressure urself too much

for my bro: all the best in ur career life…hope u wil learn to save money for your future, keke…

for yinni: thou i am not by ur side during ur hard time in final year, but my support is always with u. n i believe syah is taking very good care of u too..haha…

for saifai: so glad that our frenship never lose to long period of time, n looking forward our dinner this friday.

for puiling: so happy that u r enjoying ur current working life, n hope u r happy everydays, n dun forget i will by urside whenever u need a fren.

for sh and janice: kno u guys facing some down time in work, but smiles always n i believe luck will see u and come to you soon…haha…take care

for ____: take good care of urself and dun always stay up too late ya…remember to drink water always since u always lack of sleep, wakaka…else u will get old very fast

ok… hope u all will c my words to u guys la..haha..work lo…bye

This is the song i like a lot recently, not only the music, and also the lyrics, i feel that the lyrics is reali meaningful, haha..but it does not mean that i am in this situation la…hehe..just wanna share wit you guys about this song nia..keke…

作詞：徐若瑄　作曲：周杰倫

我是一條沒有人養的魚　揹著自由面無表情 彩色眼睛　受傷的心　只有看到黑白的你 我像一條沒有人養的魚　我的悲傷你不在意 說過的話　飄過臉頰　我無法揮去一切重新再來

＊捨不得我為什麼說再見　能不能收回我說的每一句話 　捨不得我為什麼不忘記　做一條快樂美人魚 (Rap)

你的溫柔總是來了又去　我的孤單（不稀罕同情） 你的電話　忍住不打　我不想變成習慣　等你回來

Hmm, today is the third day, i live without any coffee, teh tarik or teh ais, haha…feel so successful…this is the first time, althou i am so sad, my diet can still be under control, yoo hoo…gambateh autumnbabe…

suddenly i feel that we must satisfy of wat we had now, sometimes, when we less expect, we will get those unexpected, and i think the feeling is ichi ban 1, hehe..i think i shud not put hope o expect anything, but could i? i am doubt, but i will learn, cos i kno if i keep on putting hope on this and live in my imagination, i will fall down one day…so release my mind and haf a good rest, tomolo will have a tough day ahead…hehe..smile always…hahaha…haha…

刚才放工，忽然感触良多。。。所以想把它写在这里。。。
听很多男生说过：我不喜欢女友太会管我，我要大家有自己的空间。。。这简直是他们的口头禅。。。当他们这么说时，女生都会深深的受伤害，而我也是其中一个。。。可是我正在学习如何把这句话消化，并学习别那么在意无心的话。。。
其实女子又何尝不知道男子酷爱自由呢？往往女子因为太害怕失去，太在意，关心，才不经意做得太多，让男子喘不过气。。。但是，女子都会尽力把自己改善，可我从来没听过或看过男子，会花时间了解女生的需要。。。女生嘛，要求很简单，一句嘘寒问暖，足以让她快乐几天，至少我是这样想的。。。男生一个冷冷的眼神，莫不关心的语气，却能让她花上几天来反复思考，到底自己哪里做错了。。。
果然，女生和男生来自不同的星球。。。哈哈。。。刚刚开始阅读一本名为男人来自火星，女人来自金星的书，学了很多，很希望能马上运用，也希望我将来的白马王子也读过此书，那么我想我们可以一起努力，呵呵。。。
其实我也发现到，男生都容易犯上说了算的习惯，通常相处时间长了，他们很可能跟开始时判若两人，这时，女生要怎么调适自己呢？我还在寻找着这平衡线，哈哈。。。
刚被欺骗过，怎么说还是会敏感点的。。。总觉得会再受一次伤，希望是错觉。。。很无奈，总是觉得暂时没资格拜访爱情。。。所以要压抑，但是却无能为力，哈哈。。。在讲些什么，没办法，最近老是会想这些有的没的，哈哈。。。有心的人应该会catch到吧？！

现在的心情真差。。。忽然对做任何事都提不起劲儿。。。幸好到了午餐时间，所以到这里发泄下，哈哈。。。
知道你的想法越多，我越慌张。。。怎么会那样呢？哈。。。上天把希望给了我，又把它收回，真不明白。。。我现在好想放假，躲进我的温暖窝，大哭一场，但不能。。。理智告诉我，我必须完成今天的任务，才能卸下我的假面具。。。
可恶的是，我冷酷不了。。。拜托，我不能再这样下去了，这样只会让自己难过，没有人会同情的。。。
走到这里，才发现自己的愚蠢。。。抽身可能结果会好一点吧。。。
还是放松自己，面对吧，不管怎样残酷的事实，我也必须面对。。。你要伤害我，尽管来吧。。。

just came back from my first yoga class, joined some yoga before, but this time is the first time i start from very very basic…haha…sun salutation is the one we learn today, not to say hard, but u must know n clear bout the correct way to breath and the position & posture must be correct. so combine this three, the conclusion still the same = very hard…haha…*crap*

actuali previously i dun reali like yoga 1, becos it is very slow, and i feel that dance is more interesting…but after i attended once in a fitness centre and understand some of the theory behind, i started to love it..n perhaps after i learnt yoga, n my body become more flexible, i can dance better..wuaahaha…

i dun reali know how to express the principle of yoga, but i know yoga helps to relax ur mind while emphasize on concentration…the first thing we need to learn is to concentrate on our breathing, then we can gain our balance, subsequently, u will find that u r able to do some ‘geng’ position..haha..

the thing i like the most is yoga help in detox…after i met melilea greenfield organic, i  learn a lot about detox and naturopathy…but in melilea, we detox and get our natural healing power from food, but in yoga, deep breath helps to promote blood circulation…n ‘ci ji’ the limpha system, n this will help the detoxification. remember it is limpha which help to detox o…^_^

suddenly feel like i am very knowlegable, haha…

yeah, combining yoga and my beloved greenfield organic, i will go thru another stage of transformation soon , hooray…sound interesting rite, wanna know more come ask me la…haha…advertising pulak…haha…

stop here lu, gonna blog another topic, haha…:P

开始有点害怕了，以前的症状好像又要出现了。。。我应该怎样。。要在原地，还是放弃。。。不过，很肯定地，我这一次不想失去了，因为我知道如果又发生多一次，我很难站起来了。。。
但是我又很看不开，非要呆到最后一分钟，到自己受重伤了，才甘愿放手。。。其实我也有尝试保护自己，但我的自我保护意识很差，自己又那么不争气。。。唉！！！
我想很快地，我又会变得乐观的。。。加油。。。

很讨厌。。。现在的心情陷入了谷里。。。每次一听见那句话，心，就很不舒服；但我比以前成熟多了，至少不会到回去问个肯定，可能现在明白到，大胆表明不安，并不能另自己好过，反而让人反感。。。其实我何尝不想知道呢，只是这些好奇之心，只会把事情弄得更糟。。。我最近也发现到部落格是我唯一能够发泄的角落，写下心情及发表不满后，人自然比较轻松了。。。呼。。。但我又应该如何让自己得到平衡呢？

原来每次在戏里看到的情场玩家是真的存在的。。。而我却不知道我遇到这类人，是好事还是不幸的事。。。
一切刚开始时，他真情流露，但这些情景就象昙花，不会长久。。。当有效日期结束时，他原来的深情变成无情，再来是绝情。。。忽然觉得自己给予他的信任是愚昧的举动。。。我终于醒过来了。。。庆幸自己来得及看清一个人的真面目。。。
可是后遗症必然会有的。。。对接下来的感情多少会抱着战战兢兢的态度，但又充满期待。。。很矛盾吧？哈哈。。。
我就是那样。。。哈哈。。。
最近认识一个朋友，想说很高兴认识你，也谢谢你对我的信任，更希望你早日从以前的回忆走出来。。。＾＿＾

原来要知道一个人的想法并不容易。。。或许我太容易把自己的情绪表现出来后就没事吧，所以当我身边的人，因为某种原因，转换了态度，我就会开始慌张。。。
这些日子，一路走来，我从来没遇过这样的你，所以我现在觉得很不舒服。。不知道一个人在想什么的那种感觉真的很不好。。。我现在也被这样的感觉困扰着，到底你在想什么呢？
不过从另一方面想想，可能你是因为一些突如其来的事，变得有点烦躁。。。对！是这样了。。。这么想的话，我就不会怪自己了。。。但我还是希望这想法是对的。。。
也许，这个时候，我应该避免主动找你，那么我应该就不会不好过。。。
别想了。。。睡个午觉，可能醒来时，会收到我期待的消息。。。
ZzzzZzzz。。。